Je veux croire en l'amour. Je veux croire en toi.

i have been in a bad mood the past 3 weeks.
but no one notices because i am very good at keeping my emotions at bay.
for a little while at least.
i'm mostly upset because there are no jobs in the stupid crap town i live in.
only in the city.
and i don't have a car.
and taking a bus is the absolute NO.
i don't even have my license.
and i don't have money to get my license.
or a car.
my mom can't help me nor her husband.
my dad won't help me because he detests me.
i have no one to help me and i hate it.
i should be using this time to study but i can't concentrate.
i hate everything right now.
i want a boyfriend.
but i couldn't handle a relationship right now.
i guess i just want someone to hug and kiss and hold hands with until i can be fully capable of handling one.
FWB i guess haha.
wow. that doesn't sound like me but i guess it is me.
blahblahblah.