danse de la pluie

this is my first blog post since, well, i don't know when.
i'm finally deleting my livejournal loll
i had that thing from age 18-20. i think.
it's been a little over two years since i've used it.


i figure it's time to say au revoir to that one. i mean, how many blogs should one possess anyhow?


but i have fun reading really old dumb stuff i used to complain about.
 i was really quite a sad girl. not sure why i'm googling rain dances right now.
i guess it would be fun to do one because i'm odd.

cosmia.

wow ok i haven't updated this in quite some time.
uhm, everything is everything and everything is everything.

i've been listening to joanna newsom for the past hour, nearly two.
i can't even believe christmas is in 21 days.

Je veux croire en l'amour. Je veux croire en toi.

i have been in a bad mood the past 3 weeks.
but no one notices because i am very good at keeping my emotions at bay.
for a little while at least.
i'm mostly upset because there are no jobs in the stupid crap town i live in.
only in the city.
and i don't have a car.
and taking a bus is the absolute NO.
i don't even have my license.
and i don't have money to get my license.
or a car.
my mom can't help me nor her husband.
my dad won't help me because he detests me.
i have no one to help me and i hate it.
i should be using this time to study but i can't concentrate.
i hate everything right now.
i want a boyfriend.
but i couldn't handle a relationship right now.
i guess i just want someone to hug and kiss and hold hands with until i can be fully capable of handling one.
FWB i guess haha.
wow. that doesn't sound like me but i guess it is me.
blahblahblah.

oh ian, you were always marvelous.

another one of my favorite clips from The Rules Of Attraction.

Hair Idols.

these are literally my hair idols. nothing special. :)






obviously she's my number one hair idol.. and style-idol. and makeup. yeah. LOVE HER!!!



another one of my hair idols. yes. almost all of my idols have straight bangs. and i love their straight bangs.




i want her hair color. i have always admired her hairstyle and color a lot.




before i got my bangs done for the 3rd time, i had tried TRIED to achieve her rock n roll don't give a fuck hair. i guess i'm more proper and girly to look rock n roll.
but still love her hair.




another one of those "just rolled out bed where's the coffee" people kind of hair i wish i had! i dig her perfectly arrayed mess of strands.

(zooey deschanel, alexis krauss, jenny lewis, allison mosshart, corey kennedy)
xoxo

I HATE SUMMER.

CURRENTLY JAMMING TO:
SLEIGH BELLS
METRIC
PLASTISCINES
MIIKE SNOW
COCOROSIE

YEAH YEAH YEAH YEAH YEAH

more interesting posts come fall.

summer suxxx

my summer consists of:
constant rainy louisiana days
pride and prejudice
salinger
gossip girl episodes en loop
babysitting
new hair cut
dieting
boredom
deadmau5
the black keys
dum dum girls

I WANT FALL SEASON NOW!

:/

au revoir