cosmia.

wow ok i haven't updated this in quite some time.
uhm, everything is everything and everything is everything.

i've been listening to joanna newsom for the past hour, nearly two.
i can't even believe christmas is in 21 days.

Je veux croire en l'amour. Je veux croire en toi.

i have been in a bad mood the past 3 weeks.
but no one notices because i am very good at keeping my emotions at bay.
for a little while at least.
i'm mostly upset because there are no jobs in the stupid crap town i live in.
only in the city.
and i don't have a car.
and taking a bus is the absolute NO.
i don't even have my license.
and i don't have money to get my license.
or a car.
my mom can't help me nor her husband.
my dad won't help me because he detests me.
i have no one to help me and i hate it.
i should be using this time to study but i can't concentrate.
i hate everything right now.
i want a boyfriend.
but i couldn't handle a relationship right now.
i guess i just want someone to hug and kiss and hold hands with until i can be fully capable of handling one.
FWB i guess haha.
wow. that doesn't sound like me but i guess it is me.
blahblahblah.

oh ian, you were always marvelous.

another one of my favorite clips from The Rules Of Attraction.

Hair Idols.

these are literally my hair idols. nothing special. :)






obviously she's my number one hair idol.. and style-idol. and makeup. yeah. LOVE HER!!!



another one of my hair idols. yes. almost all of my idols have straight bangs. and i love their straight bangs.




i want her hair color. i have always admired her hairstyle and color a lot.




before i got my bangs done for the 3rd time, i had tried TRIED to achieve her rock n roll don't give a fuck hair. i guess i'm more proper and girly to look rock n roll.
but still love her hair.




another one of those "just rolled out bed where's the coffee" people kind of hair i wish i had! i dig her perfectly arrayed mess of strands.

(zooey deschanel, alexis krauss, jenny lewis, allison mosshart, corey kennedy)
xoxo

I HATE SUMMER.

CURRENTLY JAMMING TO:
SLEIGH BELLS
METRIC
PLASTISCINES
MIIKE SNOW
COCOROSIE

YEAH YEAH YEAH YEAH YEAH

more interesting posts come fall.

summer suxxx

my summer consists of:
constant rainy louisiana days
pride and prejudice
salinger
gossip girl episodes en loop
babysitting
new hair cut
dieting
boredom
deadmau5
the black keys
dum dum girls

I WANT FALL SEASON NOW!

:/

au revoir

golden the pony boy.

i'm such a crack.

finally figured out how to make my blog sort of cool ish, looking.

uhm voodoo fest 2010 cannot wait.

PASSION PIT WAS AMAZING.

my bestfriend took this lovely picture.

http://www.flickr.com/photos/jordanblanchard/4710269768/in/photostream/

blahdflgk;j vtkrvm;g

i should go to sleep very soon.

in the morning i'll call you.

last night i think i logged in about an hour maybe two on lookbook.

cannot.get.enough.of.world.fashion.

i usually say i don't give an owl's nest about fashion, but lately i've been severely intrigued.
my mother bought me Breakfast At Tiffany's :D love that movie. audrey hepburn was divine!
HEY HOLY JAMALAMA BUT THIS IS THE BEES KNEES I CROSS MY HEART AND KISS MY ELBOW

Firstly.

i did not make this for anyone to read and consume their lives with.
i don't care who reads this though either.
but most people i do know, do not use this, and so i decided i will use this.

anyway.

i don't know why i like to be a bit secretive.

i'm talking to an old friend i've known for so so so so long, and i just almost cried.
because i haven't spoken to him in like 3 years and i don't know.
so much memories.
the things i constantly think about, he easily puts away.

how can anyone be that strong?